Addiction is about pain.
Pain is about something loss.
What’s loss is you.
You have to recover your sense of you.
That’s what “Recovery” is.
Yeah… first you have to sacrifice the substance… put it on the alter… waiting out the Resurrection… rebi
rth. Sobriety. With a clear head, that’s where you begin… to find what you loss.
You have to recover your sense of you.
Now here’s the real trip:
Ain’t nothing wrong with you.
In the program we say: “It’s not the problem that causes me the problem… it’s my outlook (perception) of the problem.”
It’s all about your perception. Changing the habit of your thinking.
Just like you have a habit with whatever substance you’re attached to, you have a habit of your thinking.
Meditation is awesome.
Psychotherapy is great too … if you can afford it and you have the tenacity to go all those years without drinking, snorting, or shooting while you HONESTLY dig deep in your unfolding. There’s many ways to “recover.” Harm Reduction, 12-Steps, Buddhism, Kundalini Yoga… some people even manage to do it with church. (Church is cool… but it’s not recovery work. The alcoholic and the addict needs a spiritual conversion… but they also need a system that helps them to walk a path towards finding themselves.)
SEX– Sexuality … gender… et al…
Don’t believe the hype.
It’s YOUR path you have to walk. No one can tell you who and what you are.
Remember … always remember …
There’ ain’t nothing wrong with you. People … culture… society TOLD you that there’s something “wrong” with you. French philosopher Michel Foucault wrote:
“Power is the ability to define a person’s reality and have that person accept that definition as if it were their own.”
You have the same spark of “God” in you that ever other being has. There is no “normal”. If you’re waaaay outside the box, EMBRACE it because there’s a reason for it. You have your own unique gift to bring to the planet … and trust me, the planet needs it.
Suicide?
I don’t know an addict nor an alcoholic who hasn’t at least once thought about suicide. But the answer to that is simple: Why make a long term decision on a temporary problem?
“Everything changes.”
Buddhism 101.
Everything changes. You’re happy one minute, stay tuned because something is going to piss you off the next. You’re depressed… eventually it lifts. Somebody makes you laugh.
You got your assk kicked …. or you’re being bullied.
Temporary.
You move away, grow up and get good looking… or you join a gym or take karate or join the Navy … everything changes. You become kick-ass and you’re bully becomes a loser. Word is… make a change. Get a plan to do better. Go to school. You gain self-esteem by doing esteemable things.
Vipassana meditation. You don’t like your life? Give it to God or become monk or something really far out and unusual. After all… just like in the Matrix or Star Wars… you’re on your own, “Hero’s Journey” … and if you look, Obi-Wan Kenobi always appears.
Black Traveler 